100 and below

Here are my ukay2 finds. All of these pieces cost 100 pesos and below. CHeck out my superb ability in snagging killer ensembles and patience in digging from hundreds of piles.

A PAINTED FACE

If my old self would see me today, I might be a little bit disgusted and a little bit fascinated. I used to look really losyang, then I became fascinated with make up. I'm not really fond of branded make up and I can definitely live without make up. But they are here and I make the most of using make up. There's nothing really wrong with it. Painting my face doesn't make me look like a whore or somebody who's just too much with everything. I'm a girl and make up is definitely my friend.

I love my lip gloss. I used SimplyPretty lip gloss tube in Raspberry. I love the moisture feeling that it leaves after applying it. Not too sticky and just enough moist. If I'm feeling really unhappy, I apply first my Rosy Pink lipstick just to feel pretty. Oh Lord, I'm so girl.

This is how exactly my blush on looks like. I love the pinkish glow it gives after applying. This is definitely one of my favorite make up product because I'm so pale. I look so pale when Im not wearing make up. I can even wear it alone, even without gloss or lipstick. I feel like a fashion/make up guru.

A blush on is never alone, it needs my super brush. I love my big blush because it applies make up evenly on both cheeks without making it look like a clown's blush.

Another favorite of mine is my silver eyeshadow. I first saw this kit on a Cinderella store a year ago. I tried it and I loved it. I usually don't experiment on eyeshadows because I'm not an expert on applying it. The other side may not match the other. I usually use blue, gold or pink eyeshadow. I thought grey or silver would look wrong on me but when I tried, it was divine. I feel like a goddess.

IF ONLY

"They say people come and go. But the truth us no one really disappears from your life. People never really leave. Their roles just change."

I'm not the type of girl who reacts delightfully at movies or romantic scenes. I'm neither the type who cries at the movies when somebody dies. However, I feel sad, or may be not that sad, over some scenes which give me a pause.
Do you remember the commercial of Flanax? Two old men who are brothers gives biking another chance. They they were doing the same old things when they were still small. When this scene flashed, it gave my heart a little kick. ISn't it nice to be a child again? How I wish sometimes that we could turn back time. Not really to change things but just to again what made us really happy and simply leave in peace.
Another commercial that painted a sad smile on my face was McDo's. It's the commercial about two kids who met at McDo, became friends and eventually became best friends. The little girl became the little boy's first love. When they grew up, she married another man. HOw funny life is! Not quite tragic ending but it made me think of what ifs. WHat could have happened if it was another way around? But we really can't change things in the past. What happened there still happened.
Then I read "The Cabuliwallah" by Rabindranath Tagore. I read how the two fathers wantewd their little girls to remain as little girls. But we can't really help it, people grow and peole change. The only way to stay happy today is to accept changes.
Many moths ago, when I was still wallowing in pain and heartaches, I was struggling to find happiness in my life. I thought I was happy and I'm not. It became a juggle that I could not recognize real happiness. Then a kind soul told me, "The best feeling in this world is realizing you're perfectly happy without the things you thought you needed most." And guess what? I am perfectly happy.
We go on living and move into the future. We have a happy life and hope for a happier one. Today is today but sometimes when we see an old picture or two, don't you just wish you could turn back time?